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Friday, June 21, 2013

The World Sucks and It is All My Fault!!!


This has been a negative and yucky kind of week for me. The first one I have had in a long time…..why???
Because of me, myself and I 
 It started on Sunday when someone hurt my feelings
Instead of just letting it go; I slipped back into old behavior and confronted them….via text message…
Yes that is super mature and effective (don’t suggest this way of communicating)
Guess what…it got worse…now there is definitely a rupture in the relationship
Then on a visit home there were some misunderstandings…didn’t let those go either
Then a pitcher fell off the top of the refrigerator…who puts a pitcher up there anyway…???

It fell off when my son shut the door of the refrigerator
So of course…still entrenched with negativity from the days previous….I yelled at him…

Clearly this was an accident but I yelled anyway...

As I was picking up the broken glass a chunk slipped out of my hand and sliced my finger open…deep…stitch worthy
Then
I provided a training for work and most everyone who attended liked it….except the one person who wasn’t even suppose to be there and sent me a LONG and unappreciative email….Yep I emailed back…need I explain further?

Then
I lost $30 because I was rushing around to get to the movies on time…

As this busy week ends I have come to realize I am at fault for all of the above things happening..

These things may have happened anyway….life has its ups and downs…

What would not have happened had I been practicing, patience, understanding, gratitude and acceptance…

I wouldn’t have gotten in any disagreements about things that don’t matter
I would have just accepted it…walked away…and let it go..
I wouldn’t have yelled at my son for an accident

And..
I wouldn’t have lost money had I just stayed present in the moment and stayed thoughtful about what I was doing

So here is what I have to say about this week…

I am thankful it is over
I am leaving it where it belongs; in the past

I owe some apologies

I am thankful I didn’t slice my finger completely off

I believe the person who found my money really needs it
And money or no money…I got to see an awesome movie with my kids

Negativity breeds negativity and I have the control to make things better or worse by my response and by my attitude…

Time to refocus and come from a place of gratitude and love

After all we can start our day over at any time

Keeping it Real with Dr. Mary G

 P.S. I almost choked on a cookie tonight...literally!!!! I know better than to be eating cookies at night :)

2 comments:

  1. lol! I have sooo had weeks/months/years! like this. And yes, I brought it on myself. So now I am focusing on bringing positivity into my life and it makes a difference. Doing the next right thing helps, although I still am eating cheez-it's and they are not RIGHT! But soooo goooooood......

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  2. Keep'n it real Dr. Mary G. Thats HOW (Honesty Open and Willingness) we constantly improve. Your reflection and insight is a good reminder of my need to take inventory, make amends and reward my success. It's about progress not perfection. Thanks for the good words.

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