Two years ago the damn of build-up hurt, loss and rejection burst….…41 years of it came gushing through…
I was spiritually bankrupt….at the bottom…I was lost
At that time most people didn’t know that about me
I was pretty good at keeping "my" stuff bottled up and putting on a happy face…..
Two years ago I couldn’t mask the pain by smiling or telling jokes anymore...I broke…I shattered….I was a pile of broken glass…..shards on the ground
I stood at the crossroads
Life was going to improve or it wasn’t…there wasn’t going to be an in-between…I was going to gather those piece of glass and create a mosaic or I was going to get ground into the earth and stay shattered and broken…unable to repair
I chose the mosaic
The idea of a mosaic sounds lovely………..but its creation was not without pain
With that pain though, came liberation, empowerment and freedom....with that pain came true joy
It was well worth the work
Because of our humanity any of us can get in a position where the glass breaks….whether it is pressure from small or large life events or a lifetime of build-up pains….
None of us are above this
If the glass shatters....It doesn’t have to destroy you…define you or imprison you….
It can be a chance to recreate you…
My mosaic today is made up of the old and the new….
It has God
It has love
It has acceptance
It has truth
It has beauty
It has the reflections of an amazing life
It has the promise of an amazing life
If I wouldn’t have shattered I may not have known true happiness, joy and serenity….
I may never have known God
I realize that pieces of my mosaic will chip off, change and become recreated as life takes its toll…. but I know how to pick those pieces up…and recreate something more beautiful, more durable and stronger…
Spiritual bankruptcy is unknown to me today
I have a bank full of awesome
Pick up the pieces and create your mosaic…it is never too late
Keeping it Real with Dr. Mary G.
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