The Big Bad Bridge

You might not believe this but I use to be afraid to drive across the Astoria Bridge.

A long bridge that spans 4 miles over the Columbia River…

I would have to pull over and have someone drive over the bridge for me or I wouldn't go...

I use to be afraid to fly, to drive on the freeway, to believe I deserved anything good…

I was afraid of what people thought of me; afraid I would disappoint people..

How did this happene to me.....

I wasn’t afraid as a teenager 

 Somewhere in my early 20’s I let fear freeze me and imprison me…for a long long time..

Hard to believe coming from a woman who in the past five years completed a PhD, left an unhealthy relationship, addressed some painful  and real issues,  traveled to 7 countries and…….I don’t even know how many States

A woman who now on a dime will rock climb, hot air balloon and take any adventure or opportunity presented..

How did I for so long stay trapped in my own fears...

It snuck up on me....little by little...year by year...

The reasons don't matter...

What matters is how I thawed...

How did I unfreeze….

I stepped off the path that I allowed someone to create for me………I had faith that my life could and would be better…

Faith is a powerful thing...

I stopped being a passenger in my life and decided to take the wheel..

I stopped blaming everyone for my situation, unhappiness..

I  took responsibility for myself and my life...

I stepped off the cliff and believed I would find solid ground…

I did!! I found more than solid ground

I found  spirituality, humility, awareness,  true love, and happiness

I still experience fear, I still have sadness, I still hurt….I am a human

What is different is I don’t let it trap me or stop me from living the life I always wanted to live

I don’t let it stop me from being the me I have always wanted to be

I experience the feelings, I speak to them, I let them go and I live.....

Don’t be afraid to cross the bridge….experience it, speak to it, let it go and live

Keeping it Real with Dr. Mary G